6:41 p.m. - 04.19.2003
Going out with Andrea
I went out last Friday to Denny's. With Andrea. And I must admit, I had a pretty good time.
Up until the point where I thought I could afford the entire meal, but couldn't.
Dammit. I really wanted to pay for it.
Fuuuuuuck. If she didn't have any money...
Dine & Ditch.
I want to do that at least once in my lifetime. Just to do it.
I also want to go to jail just once. Not prison. Just jail. For just one night. My mother thinks I'm crazy.
Shhh!! Don't tell anyone! I might just go to jail because my license got suspended for 6 months because of my speeding ticket.
Damn this probationary piece of shit! Damn those double points!
It was nice seeing her again. She's lost weight too.
I cannot even begin to describe how jealous I am. Losing weight for me has always been one of those things. Where I mean to do it, mean to do it, yet never get around to doing it.
Actually, come to think of it, I have a lot of those things. Say hello to Ms. Procrastinator.
This is serious though. I really want to lose it.
But I have to admit, that these last couple of months my self-esteem has risen. A lot. I wear things that a year ago I wouldn't have even dreamed of wearing.
Going out with Andrea, I wore a tank top and a black kinda see-through thing over it, black pants, and black platforms. And I looked good. I can say that I looked good, and know I looked good.
And, yes, self-esteem is more important than being just another skinny girl. But I would like to do something about it.
I should will do something about it.
